Don't suck the marrow
out of my bones. but also,
please, don't leave me alone

I realize now that
reframe should be my refrain,.
my mantra, my name.

We talk in fragments
which is why you might not know
this is about you

1270/1271

I give up power
and then I feel frustrated,
and I get surprised!

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Blessing you with light-
the light that is always here
and accessible.

If you're problem is
you're redoing your kitchen
-there's something else too.

There is only now
but for this anxious person
there's only not now

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No, lovely's not it

This person is interesting,

but not "lovely."

Sanctuary is 
what Shul should provide for us:
safety for our souls.

I take it all in
so when asked "how's everything?"
my answer's thorough.

As November leaves
a few leaves resist the fall
though my leaf left me.

Unreliable
narrators is what we are,
each from our angle.

Might being liked be
overrated when compared
to getting respect?

Wanting the truth to
not be true, doesn't work well
for me or for you.

Blood in the temple
and bigotry in the air
the bomb's in the mail

Inside open house
I felt like an outsider
so I stepped outside

Don't fall for the trap
of those who don't want to hear
saying that they do

1257

If you gifted me
a spit filled stamp envelope
is what it might be.

I scribble down words
and release them to the wind
like crisp autumn leaves.

First thing she said was
that she asked Daas Torah
before she called me.

A pompous windbag
is so hard to listen to.
What is there to hear?

It only made it
that much better that you told
me after you died

Ephron was the first
in a long line of crooks who
run cemeteries

He pushed and he pulled
playing hero and victim
seeking while hiding.

Seeking clarity
by being ambivalent
clearly may not work.

Plated Haiku

"A lot on your plate,"
the social work intern said,
and I was clueless.

Made of fine china
circular and beautiful.
...I just see the food.

How we fill our plates
reveals a lot about us
proportionately

It's its own stealing
to not own that which is yours.
It's time to own up.

We each watch our weight
And we are also waiting
For days with no weight/wait

I trashed the chicken
that was sitting in your fridge
- thought it wasn't fresh.

Shul: thinking of food
At meals I don't think of prayer
This is so unfair

Now that dad passed on
and continues to stay gone
my life keeps changing

Getting a light bulb
to really want to be changed
can take forever

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"Someone else packed it,"
are words that no-one has said
ever - to EL AL

Time moves too quickly 

or maybe it moves just right. 

We need to keep up.

given the givens 
we are given in our lives
we give it a try

It's silly to say
"we have a situation"
when don't we have one

to those who curse me
make my soul quiet and calm
- to the blessers too

G-d, you make us find
the souls we need for our souls
- much to our surprise.

Facebook goal for me:
To not be that person who
repeats your comment

Black and white thinking
can't be just a little bit
or it would be grey

"Stream on Facebook Live,
but please don't say where you are,
so they can't find me."

We're combinations,
we're children and we're adults,
many things at once.

G-d rotates the earth
and he takes care of my soul:
Global, and Local

In order to give
we have to learn to receive
or something's lacking

We fight or we flee:
meant for life or death, not for
Twitter and Facebook

Remember, gather
yourself back inside your soul.
Resist scattering.

I resent haiku
Because they're so short,so hard
The way that life is

The hardest password
To remember is the one
That opens our souls

You can't count on me
are words no-one ever says;
well... not with their mouths

Would that I could soar
I would make The Heavens cry. 
And find the right words.

Wanting paths of peace
I believe that I believe
in the faith in me

*

True comfort is found
deep inside our ageless hearts
where all wounds are healed

1220

We judge each other
Keep in line and push away
Judgement everyday

Patterns follow me,
or so it seems, but really 
they come from in me

What we fail to own
may start to own us instead
so we need to choose...

It takes a lot of
energy to cover it
or rise above it.

1216 - With Jared Schmidt

How can I protect
myself from others' judgments?
Please teach me that trick.

Beside all the things

we need to catch in our lives

we need to catch ourselves 

Jacob found a stone
and laid himself down to sleep
in an act of faith

The three bouncing dots
are still there if you don't stare,
but less annoying

Angst - 1212

unfocused, human,

deep anxiety and dread,

worried about life

Even more-so now
mom is under the surface,
on this Mother's Day

Like turbulent seas
compared to tranquil ones
there's them and there's me

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Life is a battle
between the thoughts in my head
and reality

1209

Infinitely more,
also more by only one:
One versus zero

Doing the right thing;

we miss it even with thought,

still - better to think.

Saying no and yes

he made and slept in his bed

Kid and adult him

I've written the script
and I've memorized the lines
and I'm so not fine

* 1205

It's not what you think
The choices you make make life
Like this moment here

* 4 & 17

I pass you again
like I passed you yesterday
and will tomorrow

There used to be time
in between knowing and not.
Now we just google.

You crash in my head
as I replay arguments
that we never had

*

Mister, and my man
are not nicknames dear friends use
guess I should have known

These voice recordings
get transferred from heart to heart
hearts close, and hearts far

Please eat the grapefruit
that I forgot at your place
It's fresh, in the fridge.

1198 - A Moment At Kiddush

Discussed,the affects

of the stumbling man's illness:

alcoholism 

1197

Our entanglement
still wraps itself around me
comforting, scary

Saying, "I'll be there,"
almost surely disappoints
Just being there works

Trembling beauty
said what was and wasn't so
knew and didn't know

Not getting a cold
sounds like an unlofty goal
but those words deceive

unG-dlines 'hides
in disconnection that you
can feel content with

"You grow up around
something - it seems like nothing."
Line from "Columbus"

I'm in the moment
as I think about the past
two moments at once

1190

I wonder why we
didn't date in younger years
Oh you were married

Maybe only a
certain type of narcissist
falls for another

The old thermostat 
is moved in disagreement 
around the same line